So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.
2 Corinthians 4:18
I think back to my appointment that morning with the psychiatrist. "But I just don't live for the now. I live for eternity." I had said in reference to school. The doctor replied, "That's your problem, you need to live more in the now. You need to live in September 2010." At the time I had accepted his words, but now I saw how completely wrong he was. The world is telling us to live now. The world has convinced us that life is what we see, touch, taste, and feel. But what if you lock yourself in a quiet room in the middle of no where and close your eyes. What do you have then? When the tangible world does not exist, where do you turn? I realized that my life had gradually become empty room of darkness. Everything that I brought into the room aged and fell apart or simply vanished. There was nothing that I could latch onto. There was no thing or person that was permanent. All that I had come to cling to was my own mind- it seemed that that was all I could count on. But when I began to lose even that, I was going just for the sake of keeping going. But why? I was now lying on my back, watching the fan blades spin in circles. I kept thinking, wanting to draw some kind of conclusion. I realized, It's not what is around us that must keep us going, it what is within us. It the mindset and focus we maintain. I had fallen into the common trap of thinking that the room is all there is, because it is all I can see. But the life God has given us to live is one that is temporary. And living that life for Him leads straight to eternal life- a life bigger and better then we could ever imagine. I stand up and walk over to my dresser. I meet my own gaze in the mirror and fall back into the same hopeless pattern of thought. But we're still here. I say out loud. we are still here.
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