I ate a pint of ice cream and realized that it solved absolutely nothing. and then I looked around my room that literally reads "broken" and realized that cleaning it would solve absolutely nothing. the bad is unsolvable and the good is impossible to create. today was eh and tomorrow will be eh. it's been that kind of era where you sort of just stay in your own head and move on through. i don't like it very much. but I think it's important to allow it. It's all growth. i sit down at my desk and stare at the empty cardboard ice cream container. good that has ended. more good that has ended.
you see, everything good keeps ending. at first i just accepted it. but now i really think it's a sign that we're misunderstanding our lives. it's not supposed to be like this. we aren't supposed to be washed in disappointment and pain and sin all the time. that's why we all feel so empty and lost and broken; we were created for joy and life and peace. and Christ is standing there, screaming out of love, begging us to embrace the good ending- Him. He is our good ending. He is the designer of good. He began it and continues it and personally polishes it for each one us. He has set up for those who love Him a home and life of good in heaven.
but we're on earth, and we think the good we have is good enough. we think our purpose is to find and create good, so that we can be happy and fulfilled. i mean, we create our own destiny right? we're to blame for our brokenness, right? so we buy that ice cream, love that boy, go to that party, apply for that job. anything to set up the good. but this isn't our role! we're not suppose to fix ourselves. to find good and maintain good. and when we do, it's not meant to keep us alive. because it'll end, it'll always end. nothing on this earth is designed to be enough for us, and nothing on this earth ever will.
I think it's time to stop accepting it. don't let it win. don't think, "yeah that's just life" and wait for the next good thing. that will end too, it's how life is. but real good doesn't end. the good we were designed to have and live for can never end. Good is Christ and He never ends.